**Written on March 8, 2018**
Thursday afternoon, our day for speech therapy. This is the therapy that we go to as a family, today we arrived early and sat in the parking lot for a little bit until it was time to go in.
I turn to Darrick and said I think we have “Therapy Burnout”…him being positive looks at me and says it’s probably because we have a lot going on right now, we are moving and trying to do everything on our regular schedule…it’s a lot!
He gets out to take Emma in and I stay in the car because DJ is asleep! I really pushed for car duty today, because he may not be burnout but I am! As I sit here trying to fight back tears because I’m tired! Simple as that…I’m just tired!
Emma has the greatest team of therapist right now and sometimes when we cancel I feel like I’m letting her down and letting them down…or being a failure as a parent! But it takes a toll on us all eventually.
One day a week she goes to PT and OT in Cuyahoga Falls, this therapy is now bi-weekly. And another day during the week we go to Fairlawn, OH for Speech therapy! I leave work and meet my parents (Thank God for them) who get her to therapy earlier in the week, and from there later in the week, we take her to her other therapy. And some days when I can’t make it, Darrick leaves work and meets my parents to sit and wait for her and to get DJ.
I don’t want to come off as ungrateful because believe me when we sit in IEP meetings or watch Emma at home I see all the benefits of running from city to city getting the best therapy available for her, however, at this point, I’m a little burnout. I know I will recharge and go on as usual but today at this moment, Mama is tired! And Daddy is too, however, being the rock of the family he keeps us going when we all are tired (thankful for him).
A Grateful but Tired Special Needs Mama that has Green Eyes!