THANK GOD I made it to another YEAR!!! Today I am turning 31, seems kind of old when you type it out but nonetheless I am VERY GRATEFUL! This year as been a whirlwind, I think about me celebrating turning 30 last year and how I kept telling EVERYONE I wanted more kids but I didnt want to be pregnant on my 30th because we were going to go to Vegas and party! Well a few weeks before my 30th I found out I was pregnant and a few weeks after I turned 30 I found out that I was pregnant with TWINS! I wont go through and talk about my year last year…I will say it was filled with blessings, and LOTS of ups and downs.
However, if I could come away from 30 years old and say one thing it would be…
I CAN HANDLE ANYTHING!!!!
With God having my back…Yep, I can handle it! I may laugh, cry, cuss and fuss…but I will get through it!
Don’t Judge Me…
Im being 100% truthful with you right now! He’s not finished with me YET!
I feel I became a WOMAN at 30 years old! I have always been a woman but I became a Real Woman at 30 years old. I dealt with things that I never thought I would have to deal with (actually had to face my BIGGEST fear in life…something happening to one of my children that I have no control over). I learned about a strength inside of me as a Woman, Wife and Mother. I have learned that at times, I have to put on my “Big Girl Panties” and Deal (its not an option)…and with that came a self confidence. I know who Carissa is…and honestly, I thought I knew her before but I REALLY know her now! And honestly I hate that I had to go through all of the obstacles last year but I LOVE who I am! I love the woman that I am…
I feel like I have grown to be more comfortable in all of my roles! I’m working on losing some weight to change my outside appearance, but I have never felt more sexier than I do now! My husband and I have always been SUPER close but I even feel with him that our relationship has changed, in a great way but we have taken this relationship to another level! I REALLY love the skin I am in! I know its probably weird that I feel totally different in a year…but I really do! With the passing of my son I have realized that life is SHORT and you have to LIVE!!! Everything may not be going the way you want it to go but you still have to LIVE! Enjoy your time where God has you currently! Don’t live wishing and waiting for day to come and do something…do it TODAY!
Thank You for Celebrating with me!!!
Today also marks another milestone…its not only my birthday but also the twins 6 month birthdays! Although I miss Darrick like crazy, I celebrate him through his brother!
Happy 6th month Birthday Boys!!!