No, I’m not talking about the show “The New Normal”…
Today starts the “The New Normal” for my family.
For the last month we have been dealing with the passing of our son that I totally lost track of everything else.
Ever since October when the twins were born, everything was scheduled around going to the hospital to visit Darrick II. No matter what my schedule was for the day I knew at some point I would be going to Cleveland Clinic to visit our son. Some days my husband and I would go together, and other days it would be the entire family visiting.
However, today we start our new routine of having only two children to focus on and my husband getting back to work. Like I stated in another post his job has been AWESOME during this process and told him to take the rest of the year off once they found out everything that was going on. He went in for a day last week to check emails and to catch up on what was going on but they told him when he came in that he wasn’t supposed to be there until after the New Year (in a loving way). So tomorrow will be his first full day back…
Emma is usually scheduled for weekly speech therapy sessions, and we canceled a few sessions in preparation for me having the twins, but afterwards it was just hard going to one hospital for her, then going to another hospital for her brother. So I made the decision to give her a break for a little bit and focus on Darrick II, I still did her mouth exercises and worked on her speech at home. I was also in talks with a school to get her enrolled once she turns 3 years old. But as with everything else…this was put on hold until we knew exactly what was going on with Darrick II.
The crazy thing is that we were going through a lot with Darrick but it felt good to get a little bit of a break!
Fast Forward to this Month…
Today marks the start of a new routine, and I must say there is a little anxiety associated with it. I guess its coming to grips with the passing of a child, and caring for the other two children we have. I know its still early, but I have been one ball of emotions the pass two days and Im pretty sure it could be the anxiety of starting a new routine and realizing this is our new normal.
This week we go back to regularly scheduled weekly Speech Therapy Sessions, regular bedtime for Emma (Pray for Me because if bedtime is going to be anything like it was last night…this girl puts in the fight of a lifetime), Scheduled Days, Monthly Checkup Appointments for Douglass, cramming family errands in during the weekend and
planning a birthday party for Emma…WHEW Im tired just thinking about all of this!