For the past few weeks I have been trying to find peace with the fact that we are getting ready to go for another surgery. On June 3, Emma has to go for another surgery, we were told that this surgery would be pretty hard on her much like her palate surgery last year. She will be in the hospital for 3-4 days depending how she recovers. The major thing the doctors are paying attention to is her developing sleep apnea. Emma still has a hole at the top of her palate that developed after her palate surgery, they were surprised when we said that she doesn’t currently snore, so I am hoping that the fact that she doesn’t snore works in her favor. This time around they are repairing the hole with skin from the back of her throat and working on the scar on her lip from her first lip repair surgery.
I’ve known for a while that we are looking at surgeries almost yearly, and I wish I could say that this was the last of them…but it’s not. Maybe because I am pregnant, but this time around I’ve been having the hardest time wrapping my mind around it. I know its for the best, but I just don’t want to her to have to go through anything else (I guess that’s the Mommy in me). I’ve been constantly praying about it; the surgery, finding peace, the doctors, her recovery, Darrick and I….just everything. I’ve been very emotional about it…and I have to keep myself in check as well because I don’t want to cause stress on the twins.
Even though I have been VERY emotional (and I’m crying now as I type) I woke up with a sense of peace this morning. Thank You Jesus! I told myself that I would get Emma some pajama’s with her favorite characters like Doc McStuffins and Minnie Mouse and make sure I bring some stuff from home to make her comfortable in the hospital…and everything is going to be alright!
I just ask that you keep us all in your prayers as we go through another surgery…