Today I made that dreadful call to my supervisor about returning to work. The first time Darrick and I talked about me going back to work, I immediately started crying I couldn’t handle having to leave Emma to go to work. Well after much thought and convincing myself…I decided to return on Monday. When I called I said that I wouldn’t be coming back full-time just yet because I knew that Emma still has lots of appointments that we will have to take her to so I said I was coming back part-time until I can return to my full-time hours. I THANK GOD they are willing to work with me, but its still not something I looking forward to doing. I called a few of my co-workers and they asked if I was ready to come back and I said “NO” but I have to do it because I will have to take off later in the summer months once she has surgery, and the simple fact is I need my insurance for Emma if no one else! So I guess you can say this is my first big Mommy decision-to return to work! Booo!!! I guess I feel that I haven’t had enough time with her at home, I mean my 6 weeks of maternity leave was spent in the hospital:( And now the last two weeks we have been together everyday…(tears)…I just don’t want to leave her even if it is for a couple of hours!!!
How do Mom’s do it? Please give me advice on how to handle this first day back and getting back into the groove of things?!?!?! I see tears in my future:(