A couple of weeks ago DJ and I went to his preschool evaluation. He didn’t really understand what was going on, he thought we were going to school with Emma. He’s been to some of her class parties with me before. However, his evaluation wasn’t at Emma’s school it was in a neighboring city’s school. I wasn’t super familiar with where I was going and he wasn’t familiar at all. We walked in holding hands, but he didn’t know I probably was holding on to him a little tighter than he was holding on to me. DJ is my busybody child, he’s always talking, always into something, always throwing a football in the house (he’s your typical boy) and he’s a total Mama’s Boy and even when he is getting in trouble he’s trying to give me a kiss to tell me he loves me!
Currently, he stays with my parents while Emma is at school as he has done for the last year since I have returned back to work. I knew it was time to get him into school because he has so much energy and he’s turning 3 in a couple of weeks and it’s time to be around more children.
I knew this time was coming but I must admit I am not ready…
The acceptance letter came in the mail and although I was EXCITED (I sent out a family text) and sent messages to some of my friends, I couldn’t help but think of the text that I sent to one of my friends that said “He got in, but it’s supposed to be two of them together”
I’m not ready…because he is the baby and time just went by too fast! I am also not ready because it’s supposed to be two!
As many of you know DJ is a twin, and as blessed as we are to have DJ and see him thrive, be the healthy, rambunctious little boy that he is, I can’t help but wish that he had his twin with him to share and experience these milestones! He’s supposed to have his brother right by his side!
Darrick II and DJ were identical twins, so I was looking forward to them getting sick of me dressing them alike, trying to trick us, trick their teachers or even as they got older, trick girls! I was looking forward to having to tell the teachers to split them up because I know that they would’ve been best friends. I even looked forward to them giving guys a hard time when they liked their older sister.
I was looking forward to having to tell the teachers to split them up because I know that they would’ve been best friends! I even looked forward to one of them trying to stand out on their own, instead of being viewed as twins!
I looked forward to the teachers calling them the “Godbott Boys,” because I knew they would take their size and height from their Daddy! DJ is already following in Daddy’s footsteps with his projected growth to be around 7ft tall!
It was so much I looked forward to with them being twins!
And now I sit here in front of the computer crying my eyes out as I type this post, it has really hit me that I will never get these moments I dreamed of. DJ will carry the legacy for the “Godbott Boys” and he will have these moments (and I look forward to them) but they will be his own moments!
Don’t get me wrong I am truly happy for DJ going to school because I know he is going to love it! He is the baby and it’s a little bittersweet for multiple reasons, but I know he will love going to school, especially since his big sister will be in the classroom next door! And as I sit here and complete his paperwork for school, I have to Thank God for the time we had with Darrick II and rest in knowing that DJ will always be that special little boy that has his twin brother watching over him every step of the way!
And as I sit here and complete his paperwork for school, I have to Thank God for the time we had with Darrick II and rest in knowing that DJ will always be that special little boy that has his twin brother watching over him every step of the way! We are grateful EVERY DAY for DJ, he’s truly a miracle because of the type of twins they are; since they shared a placenta it was hard for the doctors to explain how he was perfectly healthy and his brother wasn’t!
So now we have a couple of weeks to DJ’s 3rd Birthday, and him starting this next chapter on his Birthday!