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Today I made that dreadful call to my supervisor about returning to work. The first time Darrick and I talked about me going back to work, I immediately started crying I couldn't handle having to leave Emma to go to work. Well after much thought and convincing myself...I decided to return on Monday. When I called I said that I wouldn't be coming back full-time just yet because I knew that Emma still has lots of appointments that we will have to take her to so I said I was coming back part-time until I can return to my full-time hours. I THANK GOD they are willing to work with me, but its still not something I looking forward to doing. I called a few of my co-workers and they asked if I was ready to come back and I said "NO" but I have to do it because I will have to take off later in the summer months once she has surgery, and the simple fact is I need my insurance for Emma if no one else! So I guess you can say this is my first big Mommy decision-to return to work! Booo!!! I guess I feel that I haven't had enough time with her at home, I mean my 6 weeks of maternity leave was spent in the hospital:( And now the last two weeks we have been together everyday...(tears)...I just don't want to leave her even if it is for a couple of hours!!!
How do Mom's do it? Please give me advice on how to handle this first day back and getting back into the groove of things?!?!?! I see tears in my future:(
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Oh, Carissa! You're posts makes me so teary, I feel like I have to catch my breath. I went back to work on February 21st, and I thought someone had literally broken my heart.
The good news, it gets better!! It really does. I've been back a little more than a month, and I jumped right into tax season. While it's often hard and there are days where I see Jane for just an hour, it is also rewarding.
The challenge I still struggle with is how to balance it all. That is the magic question!
I will be thinking about you. If you ever need a word of support, please let me know. The support and kindness of my working mom friends made it possible for me to wave goodbye to JAne as I pulled away and drove to work on that first day back.
Oh thanks for the advice!! I am the crybaby of all crybabies and this one is really getting me LOL:) I do believe it will get better once we go into the summer because that's our busy time and it will keep me going...but I still don't want to go! Thanks Again and I will probably need you for support to make it thru the first day!
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