Since getting pregnant I have been trying to keep up with my regular routine that I had before I was pregnant. I am working full-time, planning a wedding, prepping and planning for a baby, and working on my Master's. Yesterday I didn't go into work because I was super tired and not feeling well...I'm 9 months pregnant so basically I'm due any day now, however, I still try to keep up my regular routine and I think finally yesterday it all hit me that I Can Not Do It All, and that's okay.
I decided that I am going to drop my current class and focus on everything that I have going on right now in my life. However, after making this decision, I still felt that I was letting myself down...or that I was giving in and maybe I should work harder or try to manage my time better to get everything done. I guess I shouldn't be down on myself and realize that taking a break from school is okay, as long as I go back and finish! I was so determined to not let anything change because I was pregnant, however, after much thought and prayer I knew that something had to change or be put on hold...and I guess that was school.
Although this decision is weighing heavily on me, I must admit that I am looking forward to the break. I'm not sure if I want to start back with the next term or the one in the fall. But I guess once I get used to the changes that are getting ready to take place in my life I will get back with the program so I can finish because I am very close to the finish line.
Guess I needed to get this off my chest...